Cecilia's Journal

[Cecilia's-life]

right now i'm hungry for peach and green curry with a bit of added vinegar to give it more snap and some crushed red pepper flakes to give it more color and texture plus i like the little seeds floating in thin air in there...

Quite literally one of the only things I could stomach in the early stages of pregnancy with the twins was red and green curry or tikka masala. Preferably lamb or chicken but that’s just me.




Wait… is this another jello recipe?! You trickster!!

 

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Wait… is this another jello recipe?! You trickster!!

it doesn't have to be, i made a kick-butt peach jam with those ingredients and wished i'd made a bunch more after i tasted it. i love sweet and spicy hot stuff. i put green curry and red chili in my hot chocolate.

 

[The Porch]

Gigi just got home from work! I was with the twins all day today in an attempt to make myself less lonely.

Overall it was a good day. Exhausting day, but good. They don’t tell you how much skin to skin can knock you out. I had Francisco on my belly and Valentine on my breast at the same time! I thought it was pretty impressive.

Great! this is exactly what you need to be doing, this will help them the most! and non stop feeding, they need to latch on as much as they can, non stop, even if they arnt sucking thats ok, the bonding closeness is important,

 

[The Porch]

Today, talk to the pediatrician and if he/she isnt there find a way to contact them, let them know you want to see them

 

[Cecilia's-life]

HOW TO BE A PERSON​

How to be a person: By Shane Koyczan

ONE: Find your voice.

Know that not all languages contain words. Your voice could be music. It could be dance. It will be what expresses you most sincerely. Your voice is an art. If your heart is broken, make art with the pieces.

TWO: Remember that you are an artist.

Regardless of how constantly the world will try to drive it out of you or how a ‘real job’ will try to bury that part of you that communicates your feelings when language fails you. You are an artist. Whether it is with food or building robots. You will know your medium the instant you realize how in love you are with what it brings out of you.

THREE: Apologize.

You will not always be right. You will not always be wrong. You will hopefully always be learning. Atonement is a sacrifice of pride. Explanation of why you did what you did or said what you said will not vindicate you. If the cost to heal someone is only your pride then apologize and be grateful that you’ve received peace at such a bargain.

FOUR: Forgive.

Realize that some people are still learning. If forgiveness is not possible then think of everything you’ve ever wanted to be forgiven for but weren’t. Hold that uneasiness in your mind until you feel your desire for absolution becoming a wish. Realize you can grant this wish for others. If you are waiting for forgiveness, be prepared to wait. Be prepared to stand in the path of time and wither. Respect that forgiveness is difficult. Not all traspasses are equal and not everyone will heal according to your schedule.

FIVE: Accept that farting is funny.

Granted not always appropriate and sometimes unpleasant. But if you cannot laugh, if you are more offended by a fart than by war, famine, political corruption, deforestation, racism, sexism, classism, the wrongfully imprisoned, the treatment of women, the foreclosing on homes while banks debts are forgiven, if a fart offends you more than any of that then you are not a person and you cannot be helped. Join the cult. Have some kool aid.

SIX: Know that love is a vulnerability but not a weakness.

Love is the volunteer in you that raises its hand and steps forward without needing to be rewarded. Love is a currency that functions in reverse because the only way to be wealthy with it is to give more of it away.

SEVEN: Don’t laugh to fit in.

Laughter should be honest. If there is no sincerity in your joy then your happiness will be a forgery that fools only yourself.

EIGHT: Do not fear to be hated.

But be cautious towards those inhabited by hate. You will be hated. Regardless of who you are, what you say or what you do. You will be hated for your successes or your failures. For good looks or bad looks. For intelligence or stupidity. Hate is the child of the hater. Nurtured by the belief that has fed you. Often you will have no control for what you are hated for. Know that antipathy becomes the master of its owner. Know that if you are going to be hated regardless of who you are then be fearless enough to be who you want to be. Hate is no more eloquently articulated than in a poetry of the expression “Not Your ****ing Problem.”

NINE: Try.

The tiniest dream that you try to make happen is worth more than the biggest dream you never attempt.

TEN: Be savagely thankful and continuously in awe of the power you possess.

You are alive inside of an endless cosmos with a freedom that shines brightest in the dark. Choices. Your choices belong to you so intimately that they will never leave you. They, unlike the changing nature of love or the failing machinery of our bodies, will never abandon you to time. Good or bad they will stay always an antique, that shows the future who you were and what you stood for. So know that what you choose to stand for is what will inform you of what you’ve chosen to stand against, so stand. Let each foot crashland into what you believe and plant them there firmly so they may take root in your convictions. And stand.

 

[Cecilia's-life]

Italian Biscotti

My great grandma's recipe (she probably stole it let's be honest): 3 eggs 3 cups flour 1 small spoon baking powder ¼ cup butter ¾ cup sugar a sprinkle of anise seed a bit of lemon rind a bit of orange rind sprinkle of salt dash of vanilla Mix butter and sugar in bowl blended; beat in eggs by...

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[Cecilia's-life]

DW and I went on a movie date today.Very refreshing to get away for the day. This is your reminder to take a mental health day!

 

[Cecilia's-life]

20 days until my babies come home!!!

 

[The Porch]

car seats - fire station

 

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car seats - fire station

Oh ****! Thank you!