Beekissed
Mountain Sage
Exactly my own experience. I never looked at "going SS" as a goal or race...it has slowly but surely become the only way I know how to live. My folks started it when they went backwoods and off-grid in the 70s and 80s. My grandma was the seed that started the whole idea growing, if I want to explore the roots of it all. It always fascinated me that someone actually could be the source of food...up until then food came in cans and boxes from the store!Farmfresh said:Have you ever considered giving up on being SS?
I wouldn't know HOW to give it up!
Being SS is just ingrained into my being at this point. Even now when things have gone from hard to occasionally impossible with my health issues, I never think about giving it up. Instead I work on streamlining. Making the impossible be simply hard. I STILL have dreams of a larger place ... even as I am sizing down.
Every failure is a lesson. Every little success is a joy!
Besides that, what is the other choice? Somehow I just can't imagine living like those other folks do. How would I ever forget the taste of my own fresh grown tomato eaten warm in the garden, the joy of baby chicks, the humor of a spring lamb or the satisfaction of making a meal that I completely grew?
I remember being completely enthralled when we would come for a visit and she would go out and kill a chicken for our dinner. Out from her cellar house and pantry would spill jars of food, from her freezer would come more and her yard was always a source of fresh food for the taking. To the youngest of nine children, this abundance of a large variety of foods was like magic! We picked rhubarb, peeled, salted and ate it~juice running down our chins~right there as we stood in the warm sun (my mouth is watering as I type this!). She had chickens, cattle, a grape harbor, crocks of pickled corn, cabbage, beans, etc. , rows of fresh veggies and apple trees. Her paring knives were Old Hickory and filed as thin as a fillet knife from years of use...and they were razor sharp! Even into her 80s she was building oak swings, up on ladders painting, building, doing. She had a hard life growing up and she didn't sit around in misery about it~she worked to make things easier, better, simpler.
Every time I try something new with my gardening, animal husbandry or food preservation it is an exploration...and each time it is with the knowledge that it may not work in my circumstance, in my soils, in my weather conditions, in my life. When it does I feel such triumph and satisfaction, when it doesn't, I feel the urge to study on and find something that does work, something that makes life simpler, better, easier, cheaper.
Do I feel defeated sometimes? Yes. What farmer doesn't feel like rock bottom as drought withers the crops? What farmer doesn't learn that a particular cattle breed just isn't going to serve his purpose~after investing in and working with the breed for the past 5 years?
To the OP, I've got to ask "Why heirloom seeds?" I know it's nice to be able to grow heirloom varieties but other veggies were developed for a good reason and they reproduce themselves very well, if not entirely true to form. Just see how easily volunteer tomatoes, cucumbers and squash spring up from your compost pile! My advice is to grow what produces and has viable, fertile seeds, save the seeds from that. As someone else stated, cull the chickens that do not produce...one cannot live frugally on sympathy and mushy hearts. Yes, they are beautiful and yes, they have quirky and fun personalities...but they are food first and foremost and they become expensive food if not managed well.
The biggest mantra that will keep you living SS even when things don't work out is this.."Do I really need it?" If not, cut it loose. Get in the habit of cutting the strings of things that burden, waste money, take up space, take up too much time. Pretty soon it comes easily and the choices aren't so difficult to make~they become sort of natural then, like FarmFresh said. It just becomes a way of life and you can't imagine any other way.