It's the small things that take me down- like I had borrowed a fence post thumper from a friend who has insisted she didn't need it for a huge long time. But after awhile, I felt more and more guilty so when I saw some at the feed store, I bought it. Totally emotional buy- I felt guilty holding on to my friends so long without using it everyday so I made myself feel better by buy one rather than going out to finish my job.
Same with my recent purchase of an oil lantern and oil. Had to go to the hardware store as I shorted out my pellet stove (another story) and need a fuse. But while I was at the store, I saw the lantern and oil. I was feeling obligated to the store because two guys spent quite some time with me figuring out which fuse I needed (three over 50 people trying to read the small print on the fuses) which only cost a $1.60 for two. So I saw the oil lantern on the way out- it was only $9 and said to myself "well, I might need that," and bought it. The only trouble is that I have never used one, it looks like a cheap chinese ticky-tacky thing and I know I will be too nervous to ever use it. It will just be another thing in the way for years. But I did it with the totally irrational idea that I was thanking the guys who helped me.
Now it's not that these things were big money wasters but that I bought out of emotional wants rather that real wants. You would think that I would stop myself from doing these things- I do stop a lot but always there's a failure too.
Need an attitude adjustment- just can't find the right knob to turn. Arrggghhh