Lorihadams-- hi guys...been busy!

[gettinaclue]

Oh yeah, and my goats all said "KISS MY A$$"

http://i686.photobucket.com/albums/vv225/lorihadams/2011/100_5180.jpg

 

[savingdogs]

The little indian costumes are so cute!

And your dog looks like it would like to try s'mores!

 

[glenolam]

What great pictures!!!

Mmmmm...smores....

Speaking of smores - didja know you can make and awesome smore without fire?

Just use Fluff instead of a marshmello!

 

[Denim Deb]

Lori, your kids are so cute. I miss that age w/my kids.

 

[lorihadams]

Thanks guys! We make smores in the microwave when the weather is bad, I just put the bottom graham cracker on the plate with 2 chocolate pieces and nuke the marshmallow on top until it puffs up, about 15-20 seconds, but you gotta watch it! Then I take it out and put the other graham cracker on top and let it roll.

My lab LOVES marshmallow and Frawg, the bassett, loves food in general. I left the pool bag out on the floor the other day and went outside for a few minutes to check everyone's water and when I came back in she had eaten 4 granola bars that I had in the bag for snacks. Grrrrrrr.

Well, today had a rocky start and the kids are making me crazy. Hubby and I fought last night and I didn't go to sleep until after 2am and then the dogs woke me up at 5:15, kids came in at 7 and my alarm woke me up at 7:25. I am NOT in a good mood today. When I don't sleep I hurt and when I hurt I'm short tempered and cranky. Then I get a phone call from hubby about our phone bill. He goes online periodically to check our usage cause we only have 700 minutes for both phones. So, he calls me and tells me that our bill is past due. WTH???

Evidentally I didn't pay last months bill. I don't know how that happened but the only thing I can guess is that it got mixed in with the recycling and thrown out by mistake. So I went online and paid last months and this months bill to the tune of $280. It is usually $132 a month but that is for both phones and our internet wireless card and we don't have a landline.

Today is not going well. I need to go get Father's day cards for everyone and go to the pet store for crickets. Both children are in their rooms being punished for fighting as we speak. I am over it.

To top it off, my birthday is Saturday and my husband took it upon himself to call my MIL and tell her I was leaving Thursday to come to her house for the weekend and then threw the phone at me and told me "there, now you deal with the arrangements."

I'm not the type of person that likes being told what I'm gonna do so this did not go over well. He called her yesterday and told her that he was out of line and I wasn't coming. I can't justify spending all that money to go sit in my MIL's house for a weekend (she lives in NC and I'm in VA--about a 4-6 hr drive depending on traffic). I told my husband that I would much rather go get a massage or try to go to the chiropractor and have him work on my neck and back finally. I was just pissed that he didn't ask. His heart was in the right place, he wants me to get a break from the kids and the farm but don't TELL me what I am gonna do like I don't have a brain cell in my head.

Then we proceded to get in an argument about the affection thing again. Please tell me how I'm supposed to just make myself feel sexual when it just isn't there. Same old problem that's been around for the last 8 years. I'm still having discomfort and pain during sex and I am just not into it. I make myself do it and make the effort to try but nothing works. Then when I try to be affectionate with him he puts his hand in my face and says "I don't think so." I don't drop everything I'm doing when he walks in to go run and kiss him so when I finish what I'm doing I'll go kiss him and because I don't do it on his timetable it's an issue.

I love him but this is exhausting. Mentally I'm done. I am the problem but I don't know how to fix it. How do you just make (basically) impotence go away? I am 35 and have no sex drive, pain and discomfort during sex, and cannot "finish" ever. How do I just flip a switch and make it better? I can't. He doesn't get it. If the problem was him I could have left him for someone else a long time ago. It's not about him, there is something wrong with me.

I'm just over it.

 

[Quail_Antwerp]

I'm sending you hugs, because I don't know what to say to help you feel better - and since a real hug would probably be uncomfortable for you right now...

 

[lorihadams]

thanks honey....

 

[justusnak]

Awww Lori..I am so sorry. I don't know what to say about your love life, or lack there of. I am sure you have been to doctors and all. Maybe an herbalist can help? Muscle relaxer before? I wish there was a way you could pack up for a few days and come here. No stress....no mess...well, ok, there is always a mess. I am going to send up a special prayer for ya sweetie....sounds like you need it!

 

[keljonma]

What great pics of the kids! Thanks for sharing your creative ideas. It looks like you had a great time camping. S'mores are some of TR's favorite foods.

 

[glenolam]

Sorry Lori....I'm almost in the same boat - all except the pain part.

Do you drink wine at all? I've found that a glass or two helps me. Other than that I've started to take other measures like stopping birth control (which was just this month so we'll see how it goes) and talking to my DH about what it is that I actually like and don't like....of course, getting him to actually listen and do those things is another problem. :/

Maybe you're doing too much at home...honestly. Too much stress can really have an impact on your hormones and I bet that massage or chiropractor appt would do you good...as long as you kept up with appointments.

And don't worry about the cell bill...I forgot to pay the Home Depot bill last month. It happens.