SheriM - Too Stubborn to Stop Dreamin' - SURPRISE!!!

[reinbeau]

Sheri, the logical side in me says to do the treatments - but the feeling side of me understands why you hesitate. I would be so distraught to make the same decision, but in the back of my mind, I'd go with the safety (and horrible discomfort, I know) of taking that chemo to get rid of the cancer inside. That's just me, though, I haven't had to go through it (thank goodness). Good luck on whichever choice you make.

 

[Carolyn]

You make perfect sense to me--difficult decisions to make--my thoughts are with you--Carolyn

 

[SheriM]

Sheri, the logical side in me says to do the treatments - but the feeling side of me understands why you hesitate. I would be so distraught to make the same decision, but in the back of my mind, I'd go with the safety (and horrible discomfort, I know) of taking that chemo to get rid of the cancer inside. That's just me, though, I haven't had to go through it (thank goodness). Good luck on whichever choice you make.

I'm leaning that way myself. I don't think I have the guts to say no. If I did and the cancer came back again, I'd never forgive myself. Not to mention that I'd be freaking out over any little lump, bump, ache or pain. Any cancer survivor tends to do a bit of that as it is, but if I hadn't done absolutely everything I could to ensure I was cancer free, the second-guessing every little thing would be 10 times worse.

 

[lorihadams]

Oh honey, I'm thinking of you and just know that we are all praying for you and hope everything turns out for the best.

 

[lorihadams]

Hey darlin', I've had you on my mind the last couple of days and I'm having a Dac moment. I love Dolly Parton and was listening to her in the car a few days ago and couldn't help but think of you. I wanted to send you the lyrics to the song "Light of a Clear Blue Morning". Hope it touches you the way it touched me.



Its been a long dark night
And Ive been a waitin for the morning
Its been a long hard fight
But I see a brand new day a dawning
Ive been looking for the sunshine
cause I aint seen it in so long
But everythings gonna work out just fine
Everythings gonna be all right
Thats been all wrong

cause I can see the light of a clear blue morning
I can see the light of a brand new day
I can see the light of a clear blue morning
And everythings gonna be all right
Its gonna be okay

Its been a long long time
Since Ive known the taste of freedom
And those clinging vines
That had me bound, well I dont need em

cause I am strong and I can prove it
And I got my dreams to see me through
Its just a mountain, I can move it
And with faith enough theres nothing I cant do

And I can see the light of a clear blue morning
And I can see the light of brand new day
I can see the light of a clear blue morning
And everythings gonna be all right
Its gonna be okay

I can see the light of a clear blue morning
I can see the light of a brand new day
Yes I can see the light of a clear blue morning
And everythings gonna be all right
Everythings gonna be all right
Everythings gonna be all right

Its gonna be okay

cause I can see the light of a clear blue morning
I can see the light of a clear blue morning
Yes I can see the light of a clear blue morning
Everythings gonna be all right
Its gonna be okay

I can see the light
I can see the light

Its gonna be all right
Its gonna be all right

Repeat...

 

[reinbeau]

Lori, that song is speaking to me, it brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for posting it, I know Sheri will take comfort in it, too!

 

[SheriM]

Oh my goodness! That song could have been written just for me. Every word resonates so deeply with me. Thank you for posting it.

 

[lorihadams]

you're welcome, just couldn't get you out of my head once I heard it a few days ago.....

 

[SheriM]

After much soul searching and lots of prayer, I have decided I will do the chemotherapy. The oncologist told me I have the option of stopping after 3 treatments, so I'm going to commit to the first three then see how I feel and if I think I can handle it, I'll do the last three. Even before I made my final decision, I told him I would be able to start treatment till June 15th, since that's when my courses finish, but I think now I'll wait till the end of June and get as much of the kidding out of the way as possible.

Thankfully, the treatments will be during the summer this time so some of the things I posted about in my request for ideas won't be an issue, like hauling water in winter. In summer, we can run garden hoses all over the place and there won't be any need to carry water at all. I can also set up bulk feeders and waterers for the chickens I just got, so that will b easier too.

 

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