SheriM - Too Stubborn to Stop Dreamin' - SURPRISE!!!

TanksHill

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Congrats on the new van. I have driven a Honda for the past 10 years. That van will carry an army of kids, loads of straw, and anything else I care to shove in it. I hope you enjoy yours.

Glad to hear May is all settled into the barn. How is your dh adjusting to it? Does he miss having the lap goat?:D

I hope all is well. g
 

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I'm sure you'll be very happy with your new acqusition. People are always amazed by how much I can get in my Saturn sedan, when I need to. I miss my Caravan for hauling, but the Saturn is sure better on gas.
 

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TanksHill said:
Glad to hear May is all settled into the barn. How is your dh adjusting to it? Does he miss having the lap goat?:D

I hope all is well. g
No, he doesn't miss having her in here, but I sure did this morning when I got up and there was no frantic bleating to greet me. :)
 

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I was in class today and just after lunch got a call from DH. He said Mary had refused her bottle. Now, Mary is the original greedy-guts and her refusing her bottle is like refusing to breathe. I was worried, but told him to try again in an hour and then call me. He called back about an hour later and said no-joy, and that her sides were rock hard. That's exactly what I was afraid of. I told him to get some Bloat-Ease into her and, after wrestling with my conscious for about 10 minutes, left class early and headed home (my classes are an hour from home). By the time I got home, he'd given her the Bloat-Ease and although she was active, she wouldn't eat so I knew we weren't out of the woods yet.

To make a long story short, she's back in the house -- with Masai so he wouldn't be lonely -- and has had some pepto and a bit of baking soda. She seems better now and even nibbled on a tiny handful of pellets I offered her. I won't quit worrying completely till she's back to knocking me over to get her bottle, but I think she's over the worst of it now.

Masai went through a milder case of the same symptoms a couple of days ago and once he was back to eating, we started giving him half milk, half replacer, so we'll switch Mary over to that too.
 

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Sounds like Mary will do anything to be a house pet. I have some chickens that do that too! ;) Hope she is feeling better soon.
 

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She drank a couple ounces at bed time last night but this morning guzzled her whole bottle without stopping. She's obviously over the problem. If she planned this as a way to get back in the house, she should have stayed sick longer. :) She'll go out this morning when I do chores.
 

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It's decision time. Despite the fact that this is a recurrence, my oncologist wants to do chemotherapy again. It's a different drug this time, but from the sounds of it, the side effects will be about the same as last time. That time, I had a total of 6 treatments, three weeks apart. After the treatments were over, it took close to a year before I really started feeling like myself again. The oncologist did say that I could stop after 3 treatments this time, but I'm not sure if that will affect the recovery time or not.

So, here I am, parked squarely on the horns of a dilemma. I can do nothing and hope that the mastectomy was enough to completely eradicate the cancer. That is definitely a possibility, since this was a local recurrence, very close to the original site. I wouldn't even be considering this as an option if the cancer had returned somewhere else. I can take three treatments, ending sometime in August and hope that this different drug and the shorter regimen will mean a quicker recovery. I can do all 6 treatments and try my best to stay more active and not let it get me down the way it did the first time.

You see, the first time I went through all this, possibly the hardest part of all was that life just seemed to stop. Virtually nothing that wasn't a matter of life and death got done. The animals got fed and watered, but that was about it. We went into a sort of "survival mode", just existing until that magic day when treatment was over. That's when I got the rude awakening that just because they weren't injecting that crap into me anymore I was going to be instantly back to normal. For over a year, cancer and the treatment and recovery controlled every aspect of my life. I lived through treatment but I didn't live during it, if that makes any sense.

So I swore that if I ever had to go through this again, I wouldn't let it rule me like it did the first time. If I do decide to do treatment, I'm going to do the best I can to maintain something resembling a normal life.

I really haven't decided what I will do. Whether I do treatment again or not, there are no guarantees that the cancer won't come back yet again. Theoretically, the chances are better that it won't if I do treatment but nothing is guaranteed. If there's anything I've learned from having cancer, it's that each and every moment we are given on this earth is a blessing. I have developed a deep appreciation for the sheer joy of being alive. I don't want to lose that, obviously, but God has already decided how many more moments I'm going to have and do I want to waste a year or more of moments feeling like crap for an undefinable chance of having more moments overall? Oh, good grief, did that make any sense at all? :barnie

So much for my skills as a writer. :)
 

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Sheri, whatever you decide to do you will have our support. I know it doesn't count much when we are all so far away, and only with you in spirit, but we are here.

Your post makes perfect sense. I just wish I could be of more help. :hugs g
 

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TanksHill said:
Sheri, whatever you decide to do you will have our support. I know it doesn't count much when we are all so far away, and only with you in spirit, but we are here.

Your post makes perfect sense. I just wish I could be of more help. :hugs g
Thank you so very much for all the support. It counts for more than you will ever know, regardless of distance.
 
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