Aw sweetheart. Red tape is so exhausting. Praying for you for strength, energy, and wisdom and that you would be surrounded with love and support and helpful people. And hopefully someone will come along with a giant scissors and just cut right through all of that red tape for you so you can focus on your family.
I know you have an incredibly full plate right now, but do stop by more often. Even if all you do is take a few moments to vent. We all would like to be there to offer at least a little support for you in these tough days.
You are all so sweet. Funny thing is - sometimes I pull up my journal to type away about what all is happening and how I feel and then just X out and walk away. I think because I walk around in a fog most of the time, plus, my feelings run from, happy for right now, frustrated, mad, down right pissed off, to feeling guilty for occasionally thinking things like, will this ever end or I will be glad when this is over and then beating myself up.
Plus, I ready your post and think to myself, now why mess up everyones day with all my grumbling, or gee....I am not the only one with crap going on. LOL
Not to mention I don't know what the heck is going on with my chickens. For forever I got almost 2 dozen eggs a day. Then they started to molt. For the last 3 months I do good to get 6 eggs a day. This from over 25 healthy laying hens. I set the game camera up in the chicken house "nothing". Well, nothing except that I learned that even when its dark, chickens don't sit still long. I had thousands of pictures of chickens moving around and doing everything but laying eggs.
Thursday I gave mine the remnants of a deer leg and actually got 6 eggs on Sunday. More than I've gotten in a week. Maybe unrelated, buuuut....
Of course, mine hide theirs... In the blackberry bushes usually *ouch*
Sometimes just typing it out & getting it out of your head can make you feel better or more at peace with it, even if you do delete it.
The Agricultural Museum plants pumpkins every year for Fall Fest. They normally let the kids pick a pumkin and the pumpkin patch is stripped bare. But for some reason this year after fall fest I noticed that the pumpkin patch was never touched. Or did not appear to be. So for the last month and a half I have been driving by their 2 times a day (to and from work) seeing all the pumpkins laying there rotting.
So I called them up Thursday afternoon and ask if I could have some. They said all I wanted. So Friday I went to work in the truck, got off at noon, and picked pumpkins. Most were already soft or to far gone. But I did get 13 really nice pumpkins. My chickens were in pumpkin heaven when I got home.
Wish I had called sooner. But I did get enough to at least give each pen of birds a pumpkin a week for the next 6 weeks.