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[Icu4dzs]

It does sound like you have some similar symptoms. I was so bored with school that i spent most of my time reading college textbooks, in the 5th grade! I had no social skills and got picked on by bullies all the time. I have a weird hatred of anything sticky on my hands, and sometimes engage in OCD hand washing when dealing with artificial products. But i can keep my hands in organic soil all day, then pick my teeth! Weird!
I never get sick, which is really weird! I guess i just don't believe in being sick. My friends are always getting colds or the flu. I think that these symptoms are just in their minds. I haven't had any of these symptoms since my 2nd attack of schizophrenia, back in '98.

OK buddy, let's see. First, schizophrenia doesn't come in attacks. You either "got it" or you don't. It doesn't go away. Folks with schizophrenia can't cope with reality, ever and they only become partially functional with some serious medication. Reading college text books in 5th grade is NOT a symptom of disease if you ask me...(and I have some opinions in that subject) I had a number of the same problems...no social skills; picked on by the bully's but at the age of 8, my dad got tired of seeing me get beat up so he took me to a martial arts school and had me trained. Before it was all over, I could throw a 250# man to the mat (he did allow it) but I did do it.

After that, when the bully's decided to beat me up, they got a very unsatisfying surprise. Then their parents would come complain to my parents that I beat up their kid and "cheated" when I fought!" I loved the "cheated" part. That was when my father would laugh and tell the parents to keep their kid away from me and stop bullying me. ( I was little and skinny so they looked at me and realized their kid was much bigger and really was a bully) so they stopped coming over. The bully kids finally got the idea and started picking on other skinny little kids and left me alone so I could read my books and play the guitar and banjo and play with my chemistry set and build stuff in trees. Heck back in the 60's I was trying to figure out how to make an electronic device that would use the LOWRANCE system in an automobile...we now have the GPS! I didn't do it but that was what I was thinking about back then.

Unfortunately, schizophrenia only gets worse with time and from what I am reading you are describing a simple case of "not fitting in" with basically some low class trash that had much lower IQ's than you do. Nothing to fear my friend. I know what you are feeling/going through. I can relate on a number of similar subjects. I just found out how to use them rather than be afraid of them as I got older. Playing music on an instrument (the banjo) helped smooth out the bumps for me.

Perhaps schizoid/schizotypal personality traits (sort of a hermit type person) may fit you a bit but they don't get the scientific abilities you have. They can't think analytically and accomplish something like those batteries you built. Sorry, you make a poor self-diagnosing psychiatrist! Besides, if the voices tell you to do functional things, learn useful skills and help you become a contributing member of society, what's the harm in that?

Schizoid/schizotypals just collect junk till they can't walk around in their house and die in the heat (like the guy I had to see last night). The difference here is that the personality disorder never gets better either. Hopefully, it doesn't get any worse.

You got the brains, they got the trains and theirs are the slow ones.

As for Abi, the fact that she can say autistic and write here on the 'puter disproves the theory that she is autistic. If you have ever dealt with a truly autistic child, they are "not here" BELIEVE ME!

IMHO, you are just beginning to "come into your purpose" here my friend. It will be that soon, all that stuff you jammed into your head before now is going to end up being "USEFUL" after the "BIG EVENT" so just stay safe and don't get sick. You are too valuable.

There is an interesting story about a kid who was born in the middle east quite some time ago. There apparently was some concerns about his mom's behavior before his dad married her because in those days, pre-marital sex got you the death penalty. She was pregnant and dad KNEW he didn't do it. Despite that fact, his dad and mom got married and since his dad owed a bunch of money for taxes so he loaded up his "at term" pregnant wife and headed off to his hometown to pay his taxes. Of course as luck would have it, when they got to his hometown, she went into labor and delivered.

The kid grew up in a family and his dad who was a professional carpenter later became a contractor. Unfortunately, his dad was killed in a construction accident and he (being the first born) became the head of the household. By the time he was 12 he could read circles around his professors at school. He followed in his dad's profession of carpentry in order to feed the family but one day, while he was at a wedding party his mom (who knew he had some unusual skills) asked him to fix their drinks. (now this was in the days before powdered Gatorade mind you) He balked at her request because to him, it seemed like a cheap party trick, but since it was for his friends and his mom who he loved to make happy, he did it.

Later when he was about 30 he came into his purpose, left home and took up with one of his brothers and an assorted bunch of odd characters. He walked all over his country telling folks some pretty outrageous tales which made the folks in his religious community REAL ANGRY because they didn't believe anyone could come up with that kind of stuff especially because they didn't agree with it and it made them seem useless (which they really were). One day he was out with his friends who were fishing from a boat in a storm and he got out of the boat (which made them really nervous) just to make a point. Another time, he was hanging with a large bunch of hungry folks who were just sitting around and managed to give them all something to eat. To this day no one could figure out where all that bread and fish came from but they did appreciate the meal. Then he stood up and told them a whole bunch of stuff that got him in real trouble.

For a couple of years he pulled off a whole bunch of what some folks thought were "cheap party tricks" which got him into trouble with the "establishment" in the area so they conspired to have him killed. They figured out how to get the folks who occupied their country to kill him for them and even got one of his best friends to rat him out. So, by the age of 33, he got arrested and was publicly executed for no crime whatsoever. Obviously, capital punishment had much lower standards in those days. To this day, some folks are still upset about his being killed for no good reason in their opinion, and once a year on the anniversary of his being murdered they call it "Good". Gotta love that irony.
(with apologies to my colleague, the physician, Luke)

So you see, not everyone who comes here with a purpose appears to be what you might think.
//BT//
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[abifae]

Not sure you know much about autism. Not all auties are completely non functional.

 

[Henrietta23]

Not sure you know much about autism. Not all auties are completely non functional.

I have worked with quite a few who are very functional. That's why it's referred to as a spectrum, right?

 

[Henrietta23]

hmmm, wrong thread, how'd I do that??

 

[Wifezilla]

Someone's learnin' on brain cooties needs a SERIOUS update.

yup...that's the scientific word for it now


Ok..autism is a spectrum. Some are like my son. Mostly non-verbal with the functioning level of a 3year old. Others are like abi...or like Temple Granden, who has several degrees and has made many innovations in veterinary sciences...particularly dealing with cattle.

Some, like those abi and I encountered on a mental health forum, couldn't speak in person worth a darn, but online could express themselves quite clearly.

There is no one type of autism. It varies and it IS a spectrum. There is also a great deal of comorbidity with other disorders like bipolar, seizures, etc... It is hard to tell and often doctors treat for only one, or the wrong part and make things worse. They can have good days and bad days. There are days when max makes a lot of eye contact and talks to us and other days when he is obviously not interested in the "out sector" as abi calls it. Many bipolars have good days and bad days. Sometimes nobody can tell they are bat stuff crazy. Other times they are calling the police to haul you away. There are days when abi appears normal. There are days she may as well wear a SPECTRUM!! Sign around her neck.

 

[abifae]

There are days she may as well wear a SPECTRUM!! Sign around her neck.

Where can I get one?

I'm testing the keyboard Amira dumped water on. I kept forgetting to replace the spare lol.

Also, apparently my phone issues at work might be power related! Older apartment, regular power outages, and it's worse in the high heat or bad weather...

So I have to get a second surge protector and the computer can sit there by itself! We're going to see if some isolation will clear the static. The tech said she'd prefer me straight in the wall but with regular outages and Colorado's electrical storms, it's too high a risk on the tower.

WOOT! I might get this fixed and have fewer reboots!

 

[Wifezilla]

I think we should make you a SPECTRUM necklace

 

[Henrietta23]

I think we should make you a SPECTRUM necklace

Make a bunch! I've got some students who could use them!!!

 

[Farmfresh]

I am a believer in a triune body. We all have components that are physical, mental, and spiritual. Those parts of us are ALL hooked tightly together. Too much or not enough of lots of physical things (examples are water and sleep) can totally whack out the mind. Sadness which is a soul sickness can devastate the body. If your mind is convinced that you are in danger your body reacts. LOTS of things can cause "mental breaks" sometimes they last a short while, and sometimes they are a life challenge. Get a persons minerals imbalanced or electrolytes out of whack and electric charges might not travel along the old paths.

No one truly understands all of the factors involved. All of the electrical charges and sensory inputs in a "normal" person are not understood. Also EACH person has their own schematic. How Abi is wired is very different from how I am wired and that is very different from Icu4dzs.

I have spent the last 16 years working with children and some adults that have "A-typical" wiring. Each is as unique as their fingerprints. I have seen LOTS of people with Autism spectrum disorders. Abi fits the profile whether you believe it or not.

Abi is a unique individual and one that has exceptional communication skills - for ANY type of person. She also is very in tune with her body and understands better the cause and effects of the physical on the mental and spiritual aspects than almost any one I know. It is unfair, however to say she is not Autistic because of her talents. Just because she can do these things we are not able to see how she does it or at what personal cost.

She said one time that she "listens to the music" in a person's voice and then uses her echolalia to imitate that music which results in a "normal" sounding speech pattern. Do you have to do all of that extra work to sound normal when you communicate? I don't. I just open my mouth and words fall out. I know all of that extra demand on a person can also take a physical and spiritual toll. I admire the strength that I see in my friend Abi.

 

[Henrietta23]

I think too, that on here, we don't get a true picture of Abi and how she functions in society. I know that is a very different thing for me at times.