Look Debbie, seriously, take a moment and sit there and read this post. Take it in and let it be a pillar for support.
Look, as you get well, I know that you are going to have some drama for the next coming weeks over smoking. I know it isn't that hard, and will power has nothing to do with it. Its understanding it that allowed me to get through it. I know that living with a smoker makes this even harder for you, and you will need some will power to not return to smoking.
Now is your time to stop this, stop killing yourself, sure we are all gonna die, but no need to hurry it along by smoking.
Today, even with my personal troubles, I never returned to smoking. The change my body has had can't be put into words. I feel better, taste food better, and don't smell. People who smoke have no idea just how bad they smell.
Keep moving forward, you don't need to smoke, it has no power to improve the quality of your life, and you can save the money you would spend on something better, like a vacation..