Lorihadams-- hi guys...been busy!

[Up-the-Creek]

Happy Easter! :bun

 

[Dace]

Wow, things are really rolling along!

Beautiful pix, and adorable kiddos

I hope you all have a lovely Easter

 

[lorihadams]

Well, I'm much better today than I was yesterday. We went to a new church and it was huge! When we looked at the weekly offering totals I nearly fell over. I had a major panic attack and it pretty much lingered all day. I ended up in tears at the dinner table. I just didn't know anyone and my children were downstairs in their new class for the first time and that made me anxious but I just couldn't handle the crowd. Hubby just can't understand. He thinks that because I take medication for the depression and anxiety that I should be fine all the time but it's not always the case. Saturday we went to a program called "A walk through Jerusalem" and even that got me a little flustered, then went to a big cookout/easter egg hunt (2500 eggs, yes, I meant to type 2500!). By the time Sunday afternoon rolled around I was ready to crack, and I did.

Got word today that we are supposed to close on the 16th. We are hoping they can push it up a bit so we can get it done end of this week. Our attorney said she thinks everything is fine and she can push it through for us.

Got word that our friend Ms. Bertie is in intensive care. She had a vein grafted a few months ago in her leg and apparently it has become blocked. Not good. We told her we would rather lose her leg than lose her. She's depressed about it. They have her on some new medication to see if that helps but they may have to put a stint in the vein to keep the blood flowing.

Got some really good pics of the kids this weekend, I'll post some later. Hope everyone had a good Easter!

 

[FarmerDenise]

Just because you are on medication doesn't mean you are going to be on an even keel all the time any more than people who don't need the meds are.
I have had to point that out to people in my life a time or two. It just means I don't have unreasonable panic attacks all the time. I still get panic attacks, but I can manage them better. I still get extremely happy and extremely sad and extremely angry or what ever. I'm not a zombie! because I am on an anti depressant
I don't like huge crowds either generally speaking. There are times I can enjoy them, like at a parade, but I don't care to be squushed at an event.
I can see how being at a new church and it being so huge, can be really overwhelming. Church is supposed to be a safe haven. Being in the middle of unfamilar grounds and people is unsettling.

Hope you are feeling better today

Looking forward of seeing pics of the kids.

 

[Farmfresh]

Totally understand the depression anxiety issues. Several family members suffer from it. Easter Sunday was probably NOT the best day to check out a new church, usually pretty chaotic even in the small churches. If everyone ELSE had a good experience you might try going to a Sunday evening meeting the next time. It will usually give you more of a feeling for the core church members and make it easier to judge the church to see if you want to go there regular.

Personally I like a small to medium size church and preferably one with an older core population. I guess I am just an old soul and I feel more at home in a church like that.

 

[Dace]

I hope you are feeling a bit better today. That situation on an Easter unday would overwhelm a lot of people, me included!

 

[Occamstazer]

Totally understand depression/anxiety problems. Been there, done that. Medicine didn't help me, it made me worse, but everyone is different.
Hang in there!

 

[MorelCabin]

I too deal with alot of anxiety and not so many panic attacks anymore but the odd one sneaks up on me depending what I eat. Pay attention to what you eat, seriously! I have found that chocolate is my MAJOR trigger, then coffee...and fast food type fats seem to get me too. If I could stay away from all those I think I would be free, but I love my coffee! (1/2 decaf now)
They are terrible! I hope you find your food triggers and learn to avoid them, then everything else seems to fall into place.

 

[Up-the-Creek]

Lori you are going through a lot of things right now. Making the big move that you have been patiently waiting on for how long??? All the big plans, buying new goat babies, barn building, driveway working,.etc.,...selling the other house,...a sick little girl in the last week,...and changing churches right in the middle of it all! Whew! If you do have depression/anxiety issues right now you should probably pace yourself carefully. Don't tackle more than you can handle at the moment,...especially with crowds and such. My mother has terrible panic attacks and anxiety issues/ depression and she has been like this for years. She takes meds,..but as the others say it doesnt always help. My mom still has to be very careful about what situations she puts herself into,...like going to a mall,..a BIG NO NO. Walmart,..she can handle it in small bursts,...small stores she is okay. Her blood pressure sky rockets when she goes to the doctor,..this is due to her anxiety. I too am a very anxious type person,...I don't do meds but,..I don't do anything that is going to put me out of sorts,..like driving on a interstate or for that matter riding on one with anyone driving. Somedays I can, somedays I can't. Interstate 81 done me in over in your neck of the woods,...I had a panic attack and was hyper-venilating,...too much traffic and I couldn't handle it. DH started panicking trying to find the closest exit ramp ,..it's funny now,...but then it wasn't. Moral of the story is just pace yourself,...sometimes you just have to say no.

 

[gettinaclue]

Wish I had some helpful words. But I'll give you two of these instead and hope they help.