Wow, gotta love the disappearing post. Grrrrr.......
Maybe it was the worlds way of telling me I shouldn't be complaining. Lets try this again.
This weekend was great. Got some stuff done. Went to Home Depot and bought some supplies. Several things for different project we need to get done. Everything from primer for the stairwell heading down to my garage to some new 4 x 4's for a broken fence in the yard.
Worked a bit in the garden. Green beans are coming in and I have a gazillion zucchini flowers. Onions a getting nice and round. I also picked up some of the white clover seed and grass seed. I am going to spread some cow ma nu nu and sprinkle away. I am hoping to fill in some dead areas.
Culled a couple of 5 or 6 year old hens. They had stopped laying already as well so they were just really yard art. Combined coops. We moved the 12, 5 month old Buff Orps in to the big coop. Did a night time stealth transfer. So no one would bicker. I am worried about the amount of Roo's though. When moving the buffs I had my hands on a couple really heft birds. I think I have more than one rooster. Not sure though.
So at what age would one consider Mid life crisis? I seem to be in need of a change. I am a bit off my normal. I keep asking my dh if hs ready to move and be a farmer. He just shakes his head at me. I guess I am just in need of a change. My SIL kept giving me the "why don't you get a job" speech. Because of how much I want to leave the state. All of my kids will be in school in the fall. The youngest stats kindergarten. Awwwww!! But it will only be from 8 - 11:30. I guess they think that if I work it would make staying possible. I think it might make leaving easier. I could pay off my debt faster. Who knows maybe I should.
Kids are home and bored. We have been at SIL's pool, gone to the dollar movies and been trying to keep busy. One thing they don't get is that even with them here I still have stuff to do. DD 7yo keeps asking why Dad does not get summer vacation. She is such a sweetheart.
Well other than that life is trudging along. I think I am planning a big family BBQ/ birthday party thing for the end of Aug. DS is turning 10 and DD 5. So I am trying to plan something for both. Going with some kind of country picnic theme. Red checked table cloths, some straw bales for extra seating, lemonade. Nothing to over the top. Shouldn't be to bad just means I need to declutter and get my house put back together.
I get restless and anxious for change at every _8 age....28, 38, now 48. I feel like I need to achieve something big by each _0 age....30, 40, 50! So I kinda understand, I think. We finally got the house with a little land when I was near the 40 mark. What will it be for 50?
I hope your dh comes around. Meanwhile, continue learning ss stuff so you will be ready!
And yay for you, staying home with your kids. You can work when they are all in school, so don't rush it. It is coming soon enough. Even as a teen, I felt much more secure when my mom was home and not working, even though I didn't spend time with her. Just knowing she was always available, a few yards away, was HUGE. Didn't understand it then, really, but looking back I see it clearly.
Yes Free I will be 40 in March. Maybe that's just it. At 18 I went to Europe at 29 I got married, moved and started a family. Now I am 39 and just buggin for something new.
I love being home for the kids. Sometime I feel a bit overlooked but I know I am needed. Sometimes more than they realize.
The one main thing for me to learn is big animals. Food for the freezer if you know what I mean. Goats may not fit into our lifestyle here. I am trying to think what will. Birds for the freezer? Pig?
I know the feeling....my hubby keeps asking me what I want to "be" and I just say, I don't know. I don't.
I don't want to go back to work cause I genuinely want to homeschool my kids. I want to have goats and chickens and ducks and rabbits and a big garden, maybe a cow....a donkey would be a great lawn ornament. I don't know, we haven't moved out of this house into the new one and he's already talking about building the next house or buying the one next door.
I just want to have a nice place to putter around with my animals and my kids and be.
How do you explain to everyone that you just want to "be"?
I get it, I really do. Maybe you could get some rabbits, they're not so bad!
I want out of Ca. I want out of the norm. I want something different.
My family drove to Fallbrook yesterday. Saw a 21 acre alpaca farm my sil is buying. It's more like 21 acres of fencing on a really dry hill with a huge ravine down the middle. She and another woman, both very stable with good jobs and homes they own. They are buying this piece of land to build a horse boarding facility. SIL will be living in the existing mobile home on property. Fallbrook is a very hot and dry and hilly. There is no power, the well is dry, the fields are over grown and the place is a wreck. But everyone there thought they were so brave, and doing such a great thing. Oh, what an adventure for them.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So why is it that my dh and I are treated like leapers because we want to move. To have an adventure. To start again doing something different. We want to live in a place with wide open fields, with plenty of water and tolerable weather. I just don't get it. Is it because it's out of state? Is it because they won't see us every day? Yeah, like they really want to anyways.
I'm flustered and need to avoid them for a while. Kinda hard.