lazyday
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I normally do not talk about this subject, but I just feel the need to say what is on my mind. I have a child who is homosexual ( hate this word)
I have known in my heart since he was just a young child around 3 years of age. I have watched the struggle, the pain the humiliation that he has suffered . I watched as he tried to conform to heterosexual (hate this word to) he even went so far as to join a church that has very strict views on this. He, worked very,very hard for this church it was like he was punishing himself for what he was experiencing in his mind and body
if you haven't guess already I will tell you anyway. When he confessed to the elders and the Pastor he was asked to leave ( yes I am crying as I type this part). I think this hurt me more than anything to watch my child be told by others that the Lord could not love or except him.
Even though I knew in my heart and mind that he was Gay and on the day he told his father and I with tears and with shame on his face that he was Gay I mourned for the loss of a son that would never know the joy of marriage or children I will not know the joy of being a Grandmother.
It has taken me time to be able to look others in the eye when asked is your son married? and be able to reply no but I am blessed to have another son who is his partner.
My son is now happy since his has come to terms with who he is. He has a wonderful partner and a wonderful life. The damage of the church did take its tolls but I know he knows that the Lord love's him and his family love him as well.
homosexuality is not something that you choose, it is who you are and not something to be ashamed of.
I am christian I love my Lord and he has been the one who I have leaned on through it all this has only strengthen my faith.
Cindi, sorry I hijacked your thread but this has prayed upon my mind all day.
I have known in my heart since he was just a young child around 3 years of age. I have watched the struggle, the pain the humiliation that he has suffered . I watched as he tried to conform to heterosexual (hate this word to) he even went so far as to join a church that has very strict views on this. He, worked very,very hard for this church it was like he was punishing himself for what he was experiencing in his mind and body
if you haven't guess already I will tell you anyway. When he confessed to the elders and the Pastor he was asked to leave ( yes I am crying as I type this part). I think this hurt me more than anything to watch my child be told by others that the Lord could not love or except him.
Even though I knew in my heart and mind that he was Gay and on the day he told his father and I with tears and with shame on his face that he was Gay I mourned for the loss of a son that would never know the joy of marriage or children I will not know the joy of being a Grandmother.
It has taken me time to be able to look others in the eye when asked is your son married? and be able to reply no but I am blessed to have another son who is his partner.
My son is now happy since his has come to terms with who he is. He has a wonderful partner and a wonderful life. The damage of the church did take its tolls but I know he knows that the Lord love's him and his family love him as well.
homosexuality is not something that you choose, it is who you are and not something to be ashamed of.
I am christian I love my Lord and he has been the one who I have leaned on through it all this has only strengthen my faith.
Cindi, sorry I hijacked your thread but this has prayed upon my mind all day.