2dreams - Its Spring In Mississippi w/pallet bed pic

[2dream]

Oh my FF - so sorry about your mom. You are right that is not the way to go.

I spent the weekend with a friend. I needed a girls night. We laughed and talked a lot about trivial stuff, and SS stuff since we are both on the same page there. We both agreed we are not survivalist just SS. And we talked about people, my DH included, who have illness that will result in death.

Our conclusion was: We are not afraid of death, we just prefer that we don't suffer to much on the way out. If there is a nuclear attack we want to be in the direct blast zone. Neither of us wants to be survivors that are running around, starving, scratching for food, dodging bullets and afraid to sleep. We don't mind going out, we just prefer not to go out hard.

And I guess you are right. Most people do want a medical solution/cure. Unfortunately there is not always one. To me it is easier to accept that fact than to ride the emotional roller coaster of: Ok this will fix it, oops, no it didn't, but this will, and on and on and on.

 

[TanksHill]

 

[Farmfresh]

I have a firm belief that we are eternal beings and the place I am headed is FAR superior than this old hunk of rock.

I am like you. I am not in a hurry to die, but I am not afraid of it. I have seen two people in my family pass from this world. It CAN be a joyful release when the time is right and the person is right with God.

I am a realist about when TSHTF. I am old, crippled and probably don't have great chances considering the MOB rule that would probably take place. I just don't worry much about that scenario. Instead I am SS to enjoy this life to the fullest, learn as much as I can while I am here and when my time comes I will saddle up and go on to see the new pasture.

I think you both are doing a great job dealing with all of the cards you have been dealt. You are an inspiration to us all.

 

[lorihadams]

 

[2dream]

I can't believe it has been so long since I have posted here. Guess I have just been busy. (Understatment of the year). I do lerk around a lot and make an occasional comment here and there.

I am bordering on "hermitism". (My new word of the month.)

I can't seem to do anything but go to work, come home, work some more, eat and sleep. I have found myself almost sullen lately and not my normal happy go lucky self. I just don't seem to be interested in much of anything any more.

So, I decided a few weeks ago to pull myself up by the bootsraps and decide what and how I want to do things. My first order of business was to take a long hard look around and see how to lighten my load. (Note to self: never look to close). I decided to redo the bathroom. (Did I say lighten the load)?
2 weeks later with sore muscles and constant work, the bathroom is almost finished. New vanity, 20 years of 2 boys grim gone, new paint job, shower curtain, rugs, etc. Now it is my oasis. Oh, and I found the most wonderful swithplate covers. Anyone looking for switchplate covers try switchhits.com. The mother of pearl switchplate covers are beautiful. But they have anything you could possibly want. And light fixtures galore are at faucetdirect.com.

Funny how a minor redo can give you time to think and help get you back on track. (Painting a bathroom seems to give you lots of solitary time, cause everyone disappears when that starts)

I have decided to reduce my chicken herd. (no its no longer a flock, its grown into a herd.) I have over 60 birds. So first cool day will send about 20 to freezer camp. Well actually most will be canned. I am also going to give my daughter 10 of my hens and a rooster. I will decide from there how many more need to go.

Still have not made up my mind on the rabbits. Stay or go? They are not as productive as I had hoped and I am not sure I want to continue anyway, since all the work now falls on me.

I have finally gotten up the guts to clean out my moms things. They have been reduced down to a more managable size. Its really hard to shove them out the door though. I never realized how hard it would be to get rid of things I never liked to start with but which she loved. Plus its amazing how we say things like, "I need to keep this as a keepsake", or momma would have a hissy fit if I got rid of this". But I am getting there. Each pass through the stuff gets a little more gone.

And for me alone, today, I am going to a beading class to learn how to make something new. Its my trip out into the world to do something just for me. I refuse to feel guilty about it, I refuse to tell myself I have to much other stuff to do.

DH is doing ok, now that he is no longer taking chemo his ALS progression has slowed down. His mental attitude needs adjusting occasionally - but, so far I am handling that ok. Threats with a dead blow hammer seem to work.

 

[TTs Chicks]

Good to hear from you - glad to hear you and DH are doing well. Sometimes life just feels like it is too hard, but you can do it. Just take it one step at a time and make sure you take a little time for yourself. You need it to keep moving forward.

 

[ohiofarmgirl]

great work on the bathroom!

and yep - hard times for sure. but keep on keepin' on. dont discount all of the things that are happening in your life - and the change of seasons is probably making it worse.

hang in there, baby! we are all pulling for you!

 

[dacjohns]

 

[FarmerChick]

hang in there 2dream

I am redoing my master bath also

picking out paint color now, and realizing I need new rugs etc...along with everything else...lol

like you, I am lightening my load also and I tackle this master bath remodel lol we must be nuts I guess

but I sold from close to 300 chickens and have 55 left. Those 55 are going within the next month and I am going to get about 6 younger hens for my personal eggs...no more selling. I am done.

I am now in the mindset as much as I love SS, life is to be easier for me anyway I can make it lol SS can be hard work and takes time. I am going to use more conveniences in life and go from there with a smile on my face haha I hope you get that smile back also!!

take care

 

[Farmfresh]

but I sold from close to 300 chickens and have 55 left. Those 55 are going within the next month and I am going to get about 6 younger hens for my personal eggs...no more selling. I am done.

I am now in the mindset as much as I love SS, life is to be easier for me anyway I can make it lol SS can be hard work and takes time. I am going to use more conveniences in life and go from there with a smile on my face haha I hope you get that smile back also!!

take care

I think many times we bite off more than we can chew. I have only had 3 to 6 hens for several years now. In addition to about 25 to 30 meat chickens a year that covers our needs pretty well.

When you have 300 chickens and are selling eggs you are really farming, not just being SELF sufficient. I have to keep reminding myself of that. Plenty enough for me and mine, but not so much that it adds to the workload unnecessarily.

We all seem to tear out a wall, redo a room or whatever else to add to our workload anyway. We shouldn't get too haywire with our animals and gardens so we still have time for life's little remodeling sessions.