Rebecca's journal-may be time to restart this

[Farmfresh]

There is ALWAYS a reason for everything that happens to us. Someday we will understand the big plan, but for now we just have to wait, learn and pray.

If you know you could find easy employment in your home area why not put some applications in around there. Most places have on line application sites now. Then if you get a job or called for an interview perhaps you can get a relative to loan you money back.

What animals are you needing to haul?

 

[FarmerDenise]

Have faith. Think of all those stupid sayings. like: God doesn't shut the door without opening a window, every cloud has a silver lining etc. They exist for a good reason.

Find yourself a nice quiet spot and do some concentrated praying (or meditating) with your heart and soul. Take some deep breaths. You do sound terribly stressed out and reasonably so. Somehow, someway, it will work itself out. It just has to.
I always feel the uncertainty is what is so scary.

and prayers to you.

 

[mandieg4]

I hope everything starts falling into place for you soon. What a rough few months you've had.

 

[Shiloh Acres]

You will be in my prayers.

I have to say that -- times when it looked like everything was falling apart and there was no way out ... Were often times when I ended up making an unexpected turn into something new that I would not have found if it were not for all the problems. I really thought of that when you said doors kept slamming shut. I think that can be God's way of keeping us from making mistakes. But there IS a way for you. I agree to spend some quiet time seeking it. Hopefully it will be opening for you right away. I am sorry to hear of so much friction between your children and everyone else, and that you don't even have your husband to turn to there. That sounds like such a stressful trial.

I will pray that God will open the RIGHT doors quickly, and give you and your family comfort and peace in the meantime.

 

[framing fowl]

Aw sweetheart . That's a lot of stress to be handling. Take a deep breath and give yourself a hug. You should be proud of the fact that you risked moving to LA. You were doing something proactive. It didn't work out the way you thought it might but at the time you had valid reasons for leaving.

Can you and the kids go out for a nature walk or something to get out of the house and regroup a little today? Praying for you, DH, and the kids. I'm so glad you shared with us and were able to get it off your chest.

Hopefully you were able to get some good rest last night rather than lying awake worrying. Let us know how you're doing today...

 

[Henrietta23]

Well, crud! Words fail me!!! You are in my prayers as well.

 

[Wifezilla]

If I were in your shoes I would go to hubby. You, him and the kids are "the family" you need to be focusing on right now. You can't be of help to anyone unless you are stable as a unit.

 

[lorihadams]

I agree with WZ--you need to be with your hubby and your kids need their daddy.

I also agree that putting in applications online could be something worthwhile.

It'll get better honey, just have faith!

 

[rebecca100]

As of today nothing is changed, but I am keeping faith that it will all be okay. Yes the kids miss their daddy and I miss him too. He calls every day. Dh heard of another place that is hiring and is going to put in his application in the morning. It pays way less, but at least it is a job. I keep hoping the first place will go ahead and tell him to come to work. What really stinks is that after he took his drug test for the trucking company, a place he had applied to down here called for him to come to work and at that point he had the money to come back, but he turned them down thinking that he already had a job and that we would be joining him. If they are truly going bankrupt then I think that is is sorry of them to lead us on like that-believing that he would be working any day when they had no real intention of putting him to work. Is that a normal thing? for a company to keep hiring and not tell their employees when they are going under?

 

[rebecca100]

I turned 29 today. I feel so old. Dh called first thing this morning to wish me happy B-day. Then FIL, BIL and I loaded chickens to go to the flea market. The price is really down. MIL bought a couple of banties. There were some blue slate turkeys that I had my eye on, but with the income problem and the fact that hopefully we will be moving in a week or two, it seemed more prudent to stay away from buying anything. Dh called back after we got home to tell me his truck was on giving trouble and he didn't know what was wrong with it. One thing or another. Lose income and then lose a vehicle. What next ? I am almost afraid to find out. He talked to the trucking company and they are still saying he can come to work for them as soon as they get his drug test back. Hopefully it is just a rumor they are going bankrupt. Maybe the test will come back soon so he can go to work!