Bee's Guest House

[Old Sew'n'Sew]

I see you are up. I was napping, just got up to go to bed, and thought I would say hi. We had a busy three days getting Dad settled, and Mom went to bed early she was exhausted but we accomplished making his environment more home like and he liked it, and it calmed him down some. His very own lift recliner and a new 26" flat screen, plus some DVD's. New clothes and shoes and he was able to hold the new great grand babies. It was quite a day!

It was all very happy and at the same time very sad, things will get better for them now.

Now enough hijacking:

Bee says: I think these extreme weather conditions are just another sign of the end times (I can just see the heads shaking as folks think, "Poor thing will be waving a sign on the street corners next!").

You are thinking in the right direction I will be going out Sat. with my sign, just like always so I gotta get some sleep. ya!

 

[Beekissed]

I keep missing Mom's calls and I've heard some of the news through Penny. Sounds like the transition is going as well as can be expected.

Jon and I will be going up next weekend so that Dad can see him before he ships out to Ft. Leonardwood.

I'll probably call over to your place in the AM to speak to the ol' Bat. Sounds like things have been eventful!

BTW, Sally and Deb...thank you for your kind words. They surely mean a lot.

I will tell you about a good death this week....these are the ones that make the not so great deaths bearable.

A little, sweet, dear lady...had been quite peacefully declining for two or three days. Comatose, this woman hasn't opened her left eye for some time due to a stroke and had a leftward turning contracture of her neck that caused her to be unable to lift her head.

This is all relevant later on.....

Far into the third day her breathing pattern changed, as per typical in the average dying process, and then it chugged on for a couple of more hours at 24 resp. per minute.

As her family waited at her bedside, sometimes sleeping, sometimes laughing, sometimes crying, this little lady just lay peacefully as in sleep but her resp. were just a little labored.

Then, she lifted her head straight up, opened both her eyes, focused~which she hadn't done for about 3 days~and smiled the biggest smile...and then, again a big smile. And immediately stopped breathing.

I do believe she saw someone she really had been waiting to see, someone had come for her....and she just quietly and joyously left the room.

 

[justusnak]

Oh Bee....what a blessing for her to go that way, and for her family to witness it. I am sure they are all thankfull for her peacefullness in passing.
Enjoy your visit with your Dad...and Bat.

 

[lorihadams]

Honey we don't think you're off your rocker! I totally understand what you're saying about the heat....it has just made things oppresive. Literally like a weight on your shoulders this year.

Maybe you just need to try something totally different. Even if it sounds ridiculous. Dye your hair purple.....that works for the teenagers these days!

Seriously though, you can really get dragged down with the hospice stuff. I worked in a nursing home for a while and every time I tried to get the patients to laugh or do something fun I got fussed at for getting them "worked up". Then they would pull me aside and tell me thanks for making the place more interesting for a little while, even if it did get me in trouble. Ever seen a group of nursing home patients play kickball.....it's a hoot! My activities director's idea of an activity was wine and cheese. Wine and cheese? Are you kidding me? Most of them couldn't have alcohol cause of their meds and the rest of them were already so constipated they didn't NEED the cheese!

Sometimes we all just get in a funk and we just gotta let it work itself out......we're here to listen, you know that!

 

[ohiofarmgirl]

hey Bee!

thanks for sharing that "good death" story, very inspiring. honestly i think the people you help are more thankful than you may know - they are just so unnerved by everything. i'll never forget the kindness the hospice worker showed to all of us when my mother passed. but then again, we showed her how much by giving her a financial gift, so i hope she knows.

i think a lot of folks are worn out, tired out, fed up, and wanting a change. the weather, the economic situation... golly. the folks who have a job are doing more with few people and are exhasuted... and the un-working just want a job. so no one is happy right now.

but we are all in this together- right. so lets all keep on keepin' on - even if you have to drag, cajole, inspire, or shove each other along until we all get our groove back.

sending hugs

 

[Beekissed]

Yes...we are all in this together~thank you, girls!!! ~ and I need to get back to my daily devotions. I think this is what I'm lacking....I'm feeling distant and lonely from God, which is entirely my fault. I just haven't been turning my mind in His direction nor offering my will up to Him.

Due to work or company, I haven't been to church for three weeks!!!

I just haven't been able to focus enough to even pray like I usually do.

I'll get my spirits back up...never fear!

Lori, the people in the nursing homes need more laughter and fun....their days are filled with boring routine and communal living. NOT FUN. I don't know what facility you worked in but they are way off base. Our local facility is the best I've seen at this and my company has 14 patients there, so I get to be there quite a bit.

Thursday they had a luau(sp?) and a parade...you should have seen the smiles! Our pet therapy dog, Tucker, led the parade...the folks sure like him.

I like my job and I like what I do and mostly the patients and families don't bug me...the family of the woman I told you about were very sweet and fun, very sensible and grounded.

But..sometimes I get a little exhausted and impatient with the patients we do have that really don't need to be hospice...some are just using their diagnosis to avail themselves of services. And our company lets it happen because we are nonprofit and we need the revenue. I have a hard time fostering up any sympathy or compassion for the users....it comes easy for the people who really need us.

Enough about my pity party...it will end soon. Seems to be a biannual event lately!

Got some fencing up in the orchard today~finally~and put the Bettys and the new ram~really, really dislike that one~in this area.

I do love my not so little wether lamb, changed his name to Fats...he is gentle and easy to catch and handle. Gaining weight like a sumo wrestler. Very soft and pretty...like his mama.

Apples are dropping early this year and I have a huge crop of them....at least something survived this scorching heat.

Will be selling Ugly Betty and this ram lamb...seriously need to downsize as this yard will not handle this many sheep during a drought. Will just keep Mo, Fats and Black Betty.

 

[lorihadams]

Well, we got a new pastor today and he told a story that might make you laugh so here goes.


One sunday morning a mother went in to wake up her son for church. He says "I don't want to go"

"Now son, you need to get up and go to church, now get up and get ready you're gonna be late"

"But last sunday I heard some of the people talking about me and you wouldn't believe all the mean things they were saying, I just hate it there, I don't want to go!"

"Now son, you need to get up and go. I'll give you 2 good reasons.....First, you are 45 years old and you need to get up and go to church........Second, you are the PASTOR, I don't care what other people are saying about you, you NEED to go to church!!!"




His whole sermon today was on getting back to god and trusting him. One of the things that he pointed out today was that God doesn't care about your PAST he cares about your FUTURE. Really struck a nerve with me.... the other thing was that God will never abandon us....no matter how bad things get or what we do wrong, he will always love us and be there for us.

Hope that made you smile!

 

[Beekissed]

It did, Lori! I can even see my preacher being that way.....

I know one of the reasons I've been depressed....I was planning on growing all this food to give away and I planted two huge gardens....and the sun burnt them to a crisp.

The only things I will have harvested were about 20 tomatoes (small and tough skinned) from the 75 plants I put in, and some pumpkins. Everything else didn't flower, grew and then rotted or just simply didn't grow. I watered some but too late and realized it wasn't doing any good.

I just so wanted to share all that food with folks and it distressed me that I couldn't...and this year I feel the food prices are going to skyrocket. I won't even have any to put in my cellar, let alone to give away.

But, then, if God had intended for me to have a bountiful harvest, He would have allowed that to happen. I know this happened for a reason and I'm sure it has something to do with walking on faith....but I am so saddened when I look out upon my dead lawn and garden. Just need to stop dwelling on it, is all.

I think maybe God wants me to focus on an entirely different kind of harvest...I will be looking for ways.

Thanks, gals, for all the good and warm fuzzies you've sent my way...it surely helps to know you are out there and you understand.

BTW, talked to Kris via email and visited her blog....she is doing fine and I told her how much we all miss her. I missed the whole thing and didn't even know what had happened.....not happy about it at all. :/

I applaud her courage!

 

[Old Sew'n'Sew]

Hi,

Just reading your thread and thought I would send you some comforting thoughts from the Bible, since the Preacher can't get out of bed. (Funny joke....)
These are all from the Great Teacher Jesus, and Wise King Solomon:

Matthew6:25-34 On this account I say to YOU: Stop being anxious about YOUR souls as to what YOU will eat or what YOU will drink, or about YOUR bodies as to what YOU will wear. Does not the soul mean more than food and the body than clothing? 26 Observe intently the birds of heaven, because they do not sow seed or reap or gather into storehouses; still YOUR heavenly Father feeds them. Are YOU not worth more than they are? 27 Who of YOU by being anxious can add one cubit to his life span? 28 Also, on the matter of clothing, why are YOU anxious? Take a lesson from the lilies of the field, how they are growing; they do not toil, nor do they spin; 29 but I say to YOU that not even Solomon in all his glory was arrayed as one of these. 30 If, now, God thus clothes the vegetation of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much rather clothe YOU, YOU with little faith? 31 So never be anxious and say, 'What are we to eat?' or, 'What are we to drink?' or, 'What are we to put on?' 32 For all these are the things the nations are eagerly pursuing. For YOUR heavenly Father knows YOU need all these things.
33 "Keep on, then, seeking first the kingdom and his righteousness, and all these [other] things will be added to YOU. 34 So, never be anxious about the next day, for the next day will have its own anxieties. Sufficient for each day is its own badness." By Jesus

(Until God's Kingdom comes we have to endure the uncertainty of these days. Sometimes we are giving the help, and sometimes because of circumstances beyond our control we must recieve help from others.).....

Ecclesiastes 9:11 I returned to see under the sun that the swift do not have the race, nor the mighty ones the battle, nor do the wise also have the food, nor do the understanding ones also have the riches, nor do even those having knowledge have the favor; because time and unforeseen occurrence befall them all. By Solomon

(There is another harvest that everybody can participate in, being harvested or helping to harvest.):

Luke10:1,2 After these things the Lord designated seventy others and sent them forth by twos in advance of him into every city and place to which he himself was going to come. 2 Then he began to say to them: "The harvest, indeed, is great, but the workers are few. Therefore beg the Master of the harvest to send out workers into his harvest."
By Jesus

(I hope you enjoyed this little bit of comfort from the very best source.)

 

[Dace]

So this was not your year for giving, perhaps next year? Don't you just wonder why? I know that God always has a plan, but wouldn't you just love a sneak peak?

Maybe your garden giving program was not what He wanted you to be focused on, but then again maybe it is. Perhaps next year will be the year that things will come together....you had said earlier in the summer/spring that you were not getting the feedback/support that you had hoped for....maybe over the winter God will send the person that you need to help facilitate this. Maybe this person is losing thier home somewhere and is devastated....will move to your area so that you can work together on this project. My mind likes to wander and try to put together the puzzles of this life.

I am still listening for my purpose.....God's voice has faded and now I am unclear. I am trying to pray more and listen better. Like you I feel a disconnect right now.