Bee's Guest House

[Beekissed]

I'm afraid of big water too.....but...I make myself go anyway so I won't miss out on the experience of it all.

I pretty much make myself do anything I really fear...so I won't have to live in fear anymore. Like dark water...seriously fear and hate dark water. But I have swam in it, boogie boarded in it, swim in it every summer....grit my teeth and do it anyway. Because its an irrational fear....well...until Jaws eats my legs off and I bleed to death very quickly.

Come to think on it...that's not such a bad way to go...they say you don't actually feel pain, only pressure and then you get woozy and tired from bloodloss and then you just die...and are repurposed into shark food. No cost of a burial even.....its a win/win situation!

Like bees.....terrified of bees. Now I have honeybees. Still terrified but am making myself do it...its amazing to see their social structure and just what they can do with just hard work, pollen and spit.

I'm also afraid of heights...well...I'm not but my body sure is. My legs and butt get really achey if I get near or drive near drop offs and overlooks. Where do I live? The mountains.... And I want to learn to sky dive and fly a plane. Imagine the thrill of flying? How cool would that be? Scary....but still thrilling and wonderful!

 

[MorelCabin]

Bee you are much braver than I am...I never knew you are afraid of Bees...you really do puch all your limits don't you? Gosh I have a hard time putting one foot in front of the other to go to the mall, never mind doing all the things I really fear! You go girl!

 

[Beekissed]

Nah...I just lead a very boring life, so I have to spice it up somehow!

And I seriously don't want to end up like my dad and a few of my siblings that cannot face fears, overcome insecurities, adapt to change....all the things that suck the joy right out of a life. It would be very easy to cling to my familiars and not make a move in life...so very easy to hunker down and ride out the storm of living.

But where is the fun in that? Short time to live....so many things to experience....

 

[MorelCabin]

Okay, okay, so when you gonna bring me some bees? Just kidding! LOL!

 

[Beekissed]

These bees here seem so nice I could probably scoop some up in my pocket and bring them to you! They are just too darn busy to be mean....working away and I'm afraid they are filling the hive too full....am going to take another peek soon to see how far they've gotten.

Scary....I hate doing it. My instinct is to swat at them.....

 

[Beekissed]

Update on the Bat's situation: One of the Toxic Twins was arrested this past Friday for the theft of Mom and Dad's things. It was published with a big headline in our hometown paper.... So glad I don't live there anymore.

Now it remains to see what will come of it...I don't think she will be able to squirm out of it as she told the investigating officer that she did it "because Mom took some of Dad's things". Actually admitted it to a policeman.....

Apparently she doesn't quite understand joint marital possessions and that a wife is allowed to place her husband's things in storage if her house is to be invaded by thieving children. I guess she thought the deputy would understand her point of view about why she should be able to steal things from her parents.

I knew I had Jerry Springer quality relatives and now the world knows it too....how grand.

 

[pioneergirl]

I knew I had Jerry Springer quality relatives and now the world knows it too....how grand.

I think we've all got them, actually. And so what if the world knows...I mean, all you need to do is sit back and watch the show, Karma does the rest!!!

 

[Beekissed]

Yeah....as we sow, so shall we reap. I know from experience that sometimes the harvest can be a bitter one....I try so hard now to plant only the things that will taste good to me later on.

I am praying now that God will use this to open their eyes and bring them back into the fold. They have strayed so far from the flock.

Oh...and Dad was kicked out of the nursing home for excessive violence. Had to get the police to transport him back to the mental hospital.

It simply amazes me that this is the same man that those sibs of mine expected my mother to shut up and just live with ...after all, and I quote, "he is your husband".

The one that got arrested actually called her up, blessed her out, told her what a bad wife she was and quoted the Bible to her when Mom had Dad committed for evaluation and treatment!

If she had not done so, she would be dead by now...I know this. Maybe that's just what they wanted?

Still amazes me... :/

 

[freemotion]

Thank goodness your mom has you, Bee!

 

[Beekissed]

Thanks, Free! I kinda like her....I think I'll keep her!

Actually, her other kids are rallying around her in this thing....some of them who haven't spoken to each other and to their family for many years are now communicating, visiting, getting to know one another.

It's like a miracle and it really proves that God surely does work in convoluted and mysterious ways....so very mysterious!

They are all talking about meeting up at my place this fall for a family meeting and get together. So very weird, as I have been the black sheep of my family since I was born.

It ought to be interesting.....