Hillfarm - good news, thank heavens.

[hillfarm]

Thanks. Not to dis anyone's religion, ever, but I am not a big believer in religion in general, especially Christian religions. I respect what your message is. I do need to find peace in my spirit. And I appreciate your kind words.

Lately, it has been a real struggle to even believe in kharma or any kind of grand plan. Maybe when I have more processing time I can find my spirit. I think she lingers in my garden.

 

[MorelCabin]

Thanks. Not to dis anyone's religion, ever, but I am not a big believer in religion in general, especially Christian religions. I respect what your message is. I do need to find peace in my spirit. And I appreciate your kind words.

Lately, it has been a real struggle to even believe in kharma or any kind of grand plan. Maybe when I have more processing time I can find my spirit. I think she lingers in my garden.

To each his own I just found that faith was a very good way to deal with it and through it all I did learn that God truly answers prayer when you really a truly dedicate yourself to him

Better get to that garden then, and I hope you find the peace you're looking for. If not, hopefully you remember this conversation.

 

[hillfarm]

Thanks MorelCabin. Your kindness is much appreciated.

 

[justusnak]

Some time it really feels like the whole world is against ya...but...really....you can make it! Like you have done, count your blessings...( easier said than done, I know) Lift your head up..and scream.....IS THAT ALL YA GOT, BRING IT ON!! You can do this...after all....you are woman, let us " hear you roar"

 

[dragonlaurel]

Wish this stage was going easier for you.
You might plant a little bit for spring or take a walk outside and let Mother Nature help. Seeing that the world getting green again reminds me that the bs is all temporary. Many people connect easier with nature when they need emotional healing.

 

[hillfarm]

Thank you. I did go outside and plant. I dug up some monkey grass that has been growing out of control. Ripped it out and even had a good sweat working. Plopped it in the place I needed it and felt worn out and happier.

My DD has decided that she is no longer going to speak to me because I am so "overdramatic". That in itself is an insult. But, thats ok. I kinda dont mind. I have told family that I dont want to know anything she's doing. Just let me know if she's dead. Sounds harsh but I really just dont need to know if she's moving in with my ex husband or pregnant or getting yet another huge tattoo. I dont need the emotional stress over it. I have a family that needs me whole. I love her, but she isnt showing me any love and I dont deserve to be emotionally abused by an angry kid with her conscience removed (hopefully temporarily).

And technically thats what she keeps saying that is what she wants, for me to butt out. So i am, totally. I actually feel better just closing the door for now. She knows where we live, she really needs me I am here.

Bought a new fridge yesterday, I needed a lil spend therapy. We got the ten percent gov. discount, which just mean we didnt have to pay taxes on it basically. We needed a new one, the old one was used when i bot it for 200 dollars 5 years ago. Got tired of the frozen eggs. Ughh. No more tho. They deliver on Tuesday. Yayayayayay.

My potato have popped threw the earth along with the shallots. Even the salad bed is popping up, just wish the dang dog would quit lying on top of it. He finds it cool after i water I assume. pain in the butt.

Passed my midterms. Feeling better about life. Time for us to get into the normal groove. Back to living life and being happy.

 

[hillfarm]

BRING IT ON!!!!! Lol, Im too scared to yell that too loud, someone might actually do it.

 

[Wifezilla]

I have a family that needs me whole. I love her, but she isnt showing me any love and I dont deserve to be emotionally abused by an angry kid with her conscience removed (hopefully temporarily).

And a someone who has stood outside and screamed at the universe "Is that all you got B!TCH!!!" tempting fate probably isn't a good idea

 

[MorelCabin]

BRING IT ON!!!!! Lol, Im too scared to yell that too loud, someone might actually do it.

One I understand all too well right now. It'll come around, it always does...and then starts another battle...that has been my experience anyway

Thanks for the smile

 

[hillfarm]

Amen. There is always something else out there waiting to knock ya down in my experiance.

I am self sufficient. Therefore I will survive.

Just wish I could shake the ones who want to wear me down.

I just keep getting more and more inclined to wanting the cabin in the deep deep woods where no one can bug me that wants to hurt us. off the grid becomes more and more appealing.