still not icing yet, but lots of rain. infact I think its coming down too fast to freeze LOL but the temps are there so thigns are gonna get slick...hoping the rains done by this afternoon so it can get to drying up lol.
dogs are not happy, Keira is incredibly antsy...(no walk yesterday with the rain and certainly no walk today (or possibly even tmorrow)) we WILL have to go to the park sunday morning or were BOTH going to need a Xanax LOL!
shes not being bad or anything...just antsy, cant get comfy, constantly wiggling moving nudging an just generally obviously pent up. lol.
I think once things get all sorted and finalized with the move to my parents place im going to look for a cheap little used treadmill to set up in their garage, good for me on yucky no walk days and train her to use it that should help with this little high energy needs something to do issue weve got going on.
she doesn't play with toys so I cant even distract her that way...though ill probably fill her kong with peanut butter in a little while just to give her something to focus on lol.
Im starting the planning of moving to my parents place.
got word form the health dept that ive got 60 days to fix the septic or the house will be condemned...
I called usda to find out if that could be postponed to give me another month (I cant get an apt for the tank pumped this month and the inspector cant come and finnish that stuff till the 2nd week of January anyway...
and they informed me that they are currently out of funding and don't know when they wil get more...could be tomorrow, could be 2020...they never know...keep checking in...
and oh if I need to discus a postponement on the condemnation ill have to go to the office because its "too much to discus via email" but "we don't have any power of negotiation with the country health officials"
I owe more on the house than its worth, im frutstrated and not getting anywhere fast, I keep hitting road blocks at every turn, and just as thigns start to look up something else comes along...
i already owe more on the house than tax appraisal and now ive got to put $6000 in just to keep them form condemming it?!
so yeah.
im pretty certain im going to just tell the bank to take it back...dads contacted his corporate laywers to see if theres any standing ground since the septic WAS supposedly inspected by a licensed usda approved inspector...but they don't seem to think theres much that can be done
*shrugs* least i got the car before i let my credit go to pot!!! lol
so the plan right now...Sell up stuff over the winter. im looking into costs for blood testing and vet certificates for the livestock but its going to be a lot more than i can afford form the looks of it.
so hoping to sell everyone, got adds for my male goat, pigs, and geese and some of the rabbits up right now...
ill wait on the females until closer to the time because i think some girls are pregnant and if i can make a little extra there...that's awesome.
starting at the end of January ill start listing none eesentail stuff (stuff i don't want to move with me but would rather not toss either, and hopefully between it all ill make enough cash to pay for moving expenses of the stuff i will be taking and hopefully enough tp pay off the land loan in full.
the goal will be spend the next few years paying off debts, saing some cash and then in about 5 years id like to buy a piece of land and BUILD my perfect little home preferably with cash and preferably at least 50% off grid...
in the mean time...
ill be definatly taking my e-lops, angoras and some of the rex, and my banty cochins to NJ with me.
hopgin to sell everyone else, and we'll being a new on 5 acres in NJ with my families assistance.
mum wants mini cows and sheep, dad wants goats and pigs, so we'll probably have a specialty "mini" farm raising mini livestock for pets and small homesteads.
thinking a trio of dexters or mini jersey, a trio of southdown babydoll sheep, a little herd of Nigerian dwarf of mini Nubian goats, and a trio of mini Juliana pigs.
well likely bring in a meat pig each spring to butcher out in the fall,
a flock of khaki ducks, and a laying flock of chickens to keep us in eggs year round, and some geese for dads pond.
ordard, berry patch and small vineyard (the sheep will live in the orchard and keep it mowed, cows ducks and geese will live in the pasture that will go in connected to the pond, and then the goats and pigs in the back, theres aheavily brushed pasture back there that will work for the goats, and the pigs will be rotated spending winter in a portable pen over the vegetable beds, spring in with the goats, summer with the cows, fall in the orchard with the sheep (cleaning up any felled fruit) and back to the potrtable pen where the veggies will live in the winter.
its not the best plan and i feel like im failing in a way but i also NEED to start putting my priorities back in ordr, the goal for this property was to become less reliant on the outside world and more self sufficient, to get OUT of debt, build a life and eventually live comfortably...
in 2 yeas ive started building the efficney with livestock but the debts are climbing the house is falling apart (my bedroom walls are once again SOAKED from the mishmash insulation the walls get completely soaked form the warm wiar hitting them in some spots where the insulation must be lacking or none existant) ive got mold issues in all the corners and on the ceilings, my clothes even get moldy in the drawers, and the more i put into the house, the more it seems to fall apart...all those things the inspector SHOULD have found...are just starting to show up.
anywho...im obviously not heading in the right direction and add to that i realy miss my family, i miss having places to walk that's not a 30 in dirve one way, i miss renfaire and things that i just cant do here due to distance.
and this time of year with my birthday in about a week and Christmas coming up reminds me of those thigns.
for all the wonderful frineds i have here, and as much as i like being alone 90% of the time...im pretty dang lonesome.
so yeah, not saying anything on facebook yet, with all the naysayers over everything else and suffering with a downshift in mood already i don't need thatbull.
i know its time to make a yucky but nessicary decision, and that's what ive done.
i still feel TN is great for me...but im not sure west tn is where im meant to be...mabe east tn...where theres a ltitle more scenery and a lot less highway lol. but thatll be a few years...and hopefully by then ill find a special someone to share my hpes dreams and workload with lol.
